Why are you leaving me in the dust?
I see so many people either trying or not trying to conceive and easily becoming pregnant. I’m here sitting and waiting.
Am I being left out because I won’t make a good mother?
Am I being left out because I’m not faithful enough?
Am I being left out because I’m not strong enough?
Why have you closed my womb and called me barren?
I feel so lost and lonely…so forsaken. The strength to move mountains is the power I need to lay my burdens at your feet, Lord. I am seeking your strength to overcome my feelings of inadequacy, which has been a constant struggle. Guide me to learn how to lay my burdens down. Help me to understand things I can’t see or grasp.
I know I’m not a perfect person. I know that I was born a sinner and will die a sinner. I DO know that you sent your only begotten son; whom you loved more than anything, to die for my sins. Everyday I continue to make mistakes and disobey your commands. There are days that I want to be left alone and sulk for my own losses and struggles.
Lord, you are so loving and you don’t want me to be in pain. Heavenly Father, you continue to wipe away my tears of pain. Lord, carry me, for I am weary and lost.
I don’t know what your divine plan for my life is, but I DO know that you’ll always be with me. You will always be there to hold me as I weep and carry me when I stumble. Lord, help me to understand your will for my life. Help me except the outcomes of your divine plan. Show me how to pick of the broken pieces of my life and start anew.
I need to learn to lean not on my own understanding and will, but YOURS. I need to redirect my focus on my wants and needs to the Lord. I don’t want to consume my whole mind, body, and spirit into having a baby. I can’t look at my desires selfishly and make any false idols. I must be patient and wait for your divine timing. There are days when I believe falsely that your plans MUST match my own. Today, I feel guilty for getting caught daydreaming about the day when my desires come to be; for it is not my desires that fulfill me, but YOURS. I need to remember that your plan for my life will be better and more amazing than anything I could possibly imagine. I am beginning to learn to trust you; Lord, by putting my faith in things unseen.
Wrap me in your loving embrace, Lord. Help me to understand and except the decisions that match your own will for my life. Teach me to except the things I don’t understand. Help me to regain strength and rebuild my life. Give me a firm fountain out of your love, support, and guidance. Help me to except your will. Teach me to not question my faith and your will.
Keep me from drifting into an unknown state of grief and sadness. Wipe away my tears. Teach me the praises to sing to you, Lord. Help me to love you more than myself.
AMEN!
I see so many people either trying or not trying to conceive and easily becoming pregnant. I’m here sitting and waiting.
Am I being left out because I won’t make a good mother?
Am I being left out because I’m not faithful enough?
Am I being left out because I’m not strong enough?
Why have you closed my womb and called me barren?
I feel so lost and lonely…so forsaken. The strength to move mountains is the power I need to lay my burdens at your feet, Lord. I am seeking your strength to overcome my feelings of inadequacy, which has been a constant struggle. Guide me to learn how to lay my burdens down. Help me to understand things I can’t see or grasp.
I know I’m not a perfect person. I know that I was born a sinner and will die a sinner. I DO know that you sent your only begotten son; whom you loved more than anything, to die for my sins. Everyday I continue to make mistakes and disobey your commands. There are days that I want to be left alone and sulk for my own losses and struggles.
Lord, you are so loving and you don’t want me to be in pain. Heavenly Father, you continue to wipe away my tears of pain. Lord, carry me, for I am weary and lost.
I don’t know what your divine plan for my life is, but I DO know that you’ll always be with me. You will always be there to hold me as I weep and carry me when I stumble. Lord, help me to understand your will for my life. Help me except the outcomes of your divine plan. Show me how to pick of the broken pieces of my life and start anew.
I need to learn to lean not on my own understanding and will, but YOURS. I need to redirect my focus on my wants and needs to the Lord. I don’t want to consume my whole mind, body, and spirit into having a baby. I can’t look at my desires selfishly and make any false idols. I must be patient and wait for your divine timing. There are days when I believe falsely that your plans MUST match my own. Today, I feel guilty for getting caught daydreaming about the day when my desires come to be; for it is not my desires that fulfill me, but YOURS. I need to remember that your plan for my life will be better and more amazing than anything I could possibly imagine. I am beginning to learn to trust you; Lord, by putting my faith in things unseen.
Wrap me in your loving embrace, Lord. Help me to understand and except the decisions that match your own will for my life. Teach me to except the things I don’t understand. Help me to regain strength and rebuild my life. Give me a firm fountain out of your love, support, and guidance. Help me to except your will. Teach me to not question my faith and your will.
Keep me from drifting into an unknown state of grief and sadness. Wipe away my tears. Teach me the praises to sing to you, Lord. Help me to love you more than myself.
AMEN!
4 comments:
This is Jessica from SC.
Your heart is so beautiful.. and God is working in you during this time.. praying that your journey of ttc is almost over, and that you get your BFP soon.. hang in there.. the storm will clear. Blessings!
Rachel- Thank you for this. My husband and I have been ttc for 3 years- and found out a year ago it is me. I have PCOS. Thank you for putting words to what I've been feeling. I will be remembering you in my prayers.
Toni from TX
This is such a beautiful prayer...it made me cry! It will help me to know how to pray for you. Thank you for sharing your heart with the blog world. ~Dorla (WI)
Don’t think of anything else just contact priest eka and purchase some of his herbal medication and your depression will go away. This was my state of mind when my doctor told me that i will not be able to concieve due to the Fibroid that was rolling in my family life and when i decide to reach out to the priest, and the priest told me what to do in other to get the medication. Eventually I receive all the Herbal medications that cure my Fibroid and give me the chance to become a proud mother: Eka is a great spiritualist, He did it for me, you can contact Eka on (dreka14demons@gmail.com). If you are suffering from the following gynecology disease::
1. Fibroid, Asthma, All STD, sinus infection
2.High Blood Pressure (herbs to reduce your BP within 7days)
3. Infection, regular body pains (yeast infection),urine tract infection.
4. Blockage from the fallopian Tube
5. Cyst from the ovaries
6. Unpleasant smell from the virginal, virginal itching
7. Irregular menstruation
8. Weakness of the penis (not able to have sex with your partner or inability to satisfy your partner sexually)
9. Watering sperm (low sperm count) not able to get woman pregnant.
10. Infertility for easy Conception.......
11. Skin diseases, Toilet infection and bad body odor…….Etc..
Simply contact the spiritualist DrEka on (dreka14demons@gmail.com) to get his Herbal Medication to cure your disease and put yourself on a motherhood side of life..
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