Why are you leaving me in the dust?
I see so many people either trying or not trying to conceive and easily becoming pregnant. I’m here sitting and waiting.
Am I being left out because I won’t make a good mother?
Am I being left out because I’m not faithful enough?
Am I being left out because I’m not strong enough?
Why have you closed my womb and called me barren?
I feel so lost and lonely…so forsaken. The strength to move mountains is the power I need to lay my burdens at your feet, Lord. I am seeking your strength to overcome my feelings of inadequacy, which has been a constant struggle. Guide me to learn how to lay my burdens down. Help me to understand things I can’t see or grasp.
I know I’m not a perfect person. I know that I was born a sinner and will die a sinner. I DO know that you sent your only begotten son; whom you loved more than anything, to die for my sins. Everyday I continue to make mistakes and disobey your commands. There are days that I want to be left alone and sulk for my own losses and struggles.
Lord, you are so loving and you don’t want me to be in pain. Heavenly Father, you continue to wipe away my tears of pain. Lord, carry me, for I am weary and lost.
I don’t know what your divine plan for my life is, but I DO know that you’ll always be with me. You will always be there to hold me as I weep and carry me when I stumble. Lord, help me to understand your will for my life. Help me except the outcomes of your divine plan. Show me how to pick of the broken pieces of my life and start anew.
I need to learn to lean not on my own understanding and will, but YOURS. I need to redirect my focus on my wants and needs to the Lord. I don’t want to consume my whole mind, body, and spirit into having a baby. I can’t look at my desires selfishly and make any false idols. I must be patient and wait for your divine timing. There are days when I believe falsely that your plans MUST match my own. Today, I feel guilty for getting caught daydreaming about the day when my desires come to be; for it is not my desires that fulfill me, but YOURS. I need to remember that your plan for my life will be better and more amazing than anything I could possibly imagine. I am beginning to learn to trust you; Lord, by putting my faith in things unseen.
Wrap me in your loving embrace, Lord. Help me to understand and except the decisions that match your own will for my life. Teach me to except the things I don’t understand. Help me to regain strength and rebuild my life. Give me a firm fountain out of your love, support, and guidance. Help me to except your will. Teach me to not question my faith and your will.
Keep me from drifting into an unknown state of grief and sadness. Wipe away my tears. Teach me the praises to sing to you, Lord. Help me to love you more than myself.
AMEN!
I see so many people either trying or not trying to conceive and easily becoming pregnant. I’m here sitting and waiting.
Am I being left out because I won’t make a good mother?
Am I being left out because I’m not faithful enough?
Am I being left out because I’m not strong enough?
Why have you closed my womb and called me barren?
I feel so lost and lonely…so forsaken. The strength to move mountains is the power I need to lay my burdens at your feet, Lord. I am seeking your strength to overcome my feelings of inadequacy, which has been a constant struggle. Guide me to learn how to lay my burdens down. Help me to understand things I can’t see or grasp.
I know I’m not a perfect person. I know that I was born a sinner and will die a sinner. I DO know that you sent your only begotten son; whom you loved more than anything, to die for my sins. Everyday I continue to make mistakes and disobey your commands. There are days that I want to be left alone and sulk for my own losses and struggles.
Lord, you are so loving and you don’t want me to be in pain. Heavenly Father, you continue to wipe away my tears of pain. Lord, carry me, for I am weary and lost.
I don’t know what your divine plan for my life is, but I DO know that you’ll always be with me. You will always be there to hold me as I weep and carry me when I stumble. Lord, help me to understand your will for my life. Help me except the outcomes of your divine plan. Show me how to pick of the broken pieces of my life and start anew.
I need to learn to lean not on my own understanding and will, but YOURS. I need to redirect my focus on my wants and needs to the Lord. I don’t want to consume my whole mind, body, and spirit into having a baby. I can’t look at my desires selfishly and make any false idols. I must be patient and wait for your divine timing. There are days when I believe falsely that your plans MUST match my own. Today, I feel guilty for getting caught daydreaming about the day when my desires come to be; for it is not my desires that fulfill me, but YOURS. I need to remember that your plan for my life will be better and more amazing than anything I could possibly imagine. I am beginning to learn to trust you; Lord, by putting my faith in things unseen.
Wrap me in your loving embrace, Lord. Help me to understand and except the decisions that match your own will for my life. Teach me to except the things I don’t understand. Help me to regain strength and rebuild my life. Give me a firm fountain out of your love, support, and guidance. Help me to except your will. Teach me to not question my faith and your will.
Keep me from drifting into an unknown state of grief and sadness. Wipe away my tears. Teach me the praises to sing to you, Lord. Help me to love you more than myself.
AMEN!
